Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
There’s a thin, fine line
between being lazy
and experiencing lethargy
I feel I’ve been half-awake
Perhaps it’s too much coffee
Someday,
when I’m back on my feet again
I’ll remember all you said
and how much you’d been a pain
I’ll remember what you put me through
How do we get to be this estranged?
We’re all the same
treating each other differently
instead of trying to understand
without too much judgment
You may associate white
with beauty or purity
All I see is what looks empty
like a page or a canvass
for a writer or a painter
I must do what’s right
kicking you out
out of my sight
You were never mine
I was stupid and blind
but now I’m fine
Tell you what?
They’ll suggest that accept
that this has never been a perfect world.
One way or another,
we’re all bound to hurt,
so just deal with it.
No signs of warning.
Everything was fine.
A face smiling,
sincere and kind.
A picture-perfect romance,
“I heard rage in your sleep,”
The Mighty Queen said.
“My child, what has gone so deep,
stealing the peacefulness in your dreams?”
“I forgot,”
Why are you still fighting?
I thought my visit would keep you calm.
I thought you’d be hanging around,
with me for this whole month,
from dawn to dusk, dusk to dawn
saying prayers to Him.
How do I stop caring for you,
after those years of closeness?
How do you go from warm to cold?
Are those elements of indifference you now hold?
How did you do that?
Didn’t you hear me say ‘no’?
When you first asked me
to do what you wanted me to
and become whom you thought I should be,
I even declined politely
I believe there’s a reason
your shattered heart’s been revealed
even when you refuse to mention
or worry you may never heal
I know I’m just a stranger